Well, I must inform you that I didn’t manage to be accepted into GSP, but it’s their loss, huh? On the flip side, Randy has taken a week off of his job so he rest a little. And again, on the second thought, I cant imagine life as being so peaceful when prom is progressing at a rapid rate (as in next weekend…), AP exams are just around the corner (it becomes noticeable when teachers begin cramming in 3 chapters a day) and so are report cards. I would just like it all to be over with so I can have some time to think in the summer (since I will be blessed with so much time as a result of, I repeat, not being accepted into GSP; buzz kill).
Even with these various responsibilities thrown upon my back at this crucial time, I cannot even express how relaxing it is to know that everyday after school I am free to do whatever I want. Scratch that, everyday after school I am free to study whatever I want. Though it’s not quite my forte and there are numerous other, personal things which appeal to me, it’s such a relief that I won’t have to stay up until 2 or 3 in the morning to get things finished.
And, not to say that I’m not disappointed, depressed and very upset, but I am also almost grateful that I don’t have to spend my time away from school inside a school at GSP. Don’t get me wrong, I would do nasty, illegal things to be enrolled, but it offered to time for me to enjoy my years as a teenager. What I will invest all of my time to, the Lord only knows, but I imagine I will find it put into something which will yield temporary happiness. Heck, if I’m lucky enough I might even forget about all of the scholarship money I’m losing!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
GSP
Apparently, today is the prolonged day that many, including myself, have been waiting for. Yes, I am talking about the letters which were supposed to have been sent off from Frankfurt the Friday prior – the letter that informs 13 students from our school whether or not we have been accepted into the Governors Scholar Program (GSP). It would be lies if I reported not feeling anxious or not being nervous. So many things depend on this program, and it’s not an exaggeration to say that my life depends on it.
Either way, supposedly, my parents said they would be proud of me. I, on the other hand, would have a sense of defeat and feel hopeless. No doubt that for the weeks following I would most likely exhibit a loss of interest in any of my activities and I wouldn’t be working to my fullest potential. In preparation I have requested the following week off of school. Unfortunately I didn’t manage to remember to ask the week of which I received the later, where the effects would be more visible, but these troubles, I imagine, won’t pass easily.
I am a little troubled by the fact that, according to one of my friends, the guidance councilors are indeed informed of the results and refuse to release them. It really puts teenagers in a feeling of anxiety which shouldn’t be experienced at such an age. I am under the impression that kids our age should spend their time running about, exploring the world and expressing themselves, not fretting over a summer program that has a huge impact on their life.
Either way, supposedly, my parents said they would be proud of me. I, on the other hand, would have a sense of defeat and feel hopeless. No doubt that for the weeks following I would most likely exhibit a loss of interest in any of my activities and I wouldn’t be working to my fullest potential. In preparation I have requested the following week off of school. Unfortunately I didn’t manage to remember to ask the week of which I received the later, where the effects would be more visible, but these troubles, I imagine, won’t pass easily.
I am a little troubled by the fact that, according to one of my friends, the guidance councilors are indeed informed of the results and refuse to release them. It really puts teenagers in a feeling of anxiety which shouldn’t be experienced at such an age. I am under the impression that kids our age should spend their time running about, exploring the world and expressing themselves, not fretting over a summer program that has a huge impact on their life.
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